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Hihi...
Random Post of the month I guess...
So can someone explain to me why guys are stupid...
I like this guy and well frankly I thought he had the same feelings for me.
Apparently not.
He's apparently confused and scared about the whole matter and decided to ask me to be just his friend for now until he figures everything out. Thats if he figures everything and if he figures out if he wants to date me or not.
Well...ya I'm rather hurt by it seeings as I really care about him but apparently not so much from his side.
I don't see why he should be confused ...
At this point...I'm so depressed and it feels like some just stabbed a knife in my heart repeatedly.
I don't really know what to do anymore.
I hate opening my heart up for guys that don't return my feelings.
Sometimes I just want to stay closed off from them so that I won't get hurt anymore.
Every time I seem to open up to a guy I seem to be used in some way. Sometimes I think their just playing some sick game on me in order to get a good laugh. I feel so used and worthless right now that I don't even feel like being open to any one anymore.
Why should I if I'm always going to get hurt in the end...
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[Saturday
June 28th,
08 at 5:56pm] |
Okie ppl
I need some help!!
Theres this guy I like but I don't really know what to do.
He's really cute and everything, but it seems that I'm making more of an effort then he is to try to make this work out.
HELP...
Like he has said that he likes me and everything...but i don't really know...
T____T
And the problem....is I can't stop thinking about him and its really annoying!!
give me some advice!
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| SPEED RACER!!! |
[Friday
May 9th,
08 at 7:37pm] |
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Yay...Going to go see Speed Racer today with my mom ^___^
Which should be load of fun...
-.- If she gets off the phone that is!
eitherway yes!
15 more days ...I can't beleive it!
I'm getting sooo excited!!!
I've got my cosplay done...well about 90% done.
All I really have to do is actually make a funky top for it which i may not even do seeing as I have a 4 way top that looks like four different shirts if I change it up.
YAY!!...
I wish you could go ellie !!!
NEXT YEAR OK!!
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| Ferret Power ^___^ |
[Tuesday
May 6th,
08 at 12:59am] |
Okie...
So recently I've decided that I wanted a pet...
I can't have a dog seeing as I live in an apartment.
No cat cuz my mom is allergic
I already have a fish...>.> who thinks he's a PARANA...
I'm not kidding my little tropical fish think's he's a parana.
So, I've decided that I am going to get a Ferret...
Yes...So I've heard that they are smelly little buggers...
But they aren't if you do everything necessary to keep them healthy.
Anyway...I though I would let everyone know...cuz in a few months I'll have my cute little ferret baby....^___^ well at least i hope so.
I'll show everyone ^^
He's going to be sooo cute!!
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| I'm alive |
[Monday
May 5th,
08 at 3:49am] |
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Hey everyone!!
I'm alive...I really am...
Ok So I realize that I haven't posted in acouple years...
But I've been busy >.>..
ok ok...You caught me, It's a lie!
Well actually, only in the past 8 months have I really been busy.
College started which was great..Passed with flying colours... sorta...lol
Eitherway, made some new friends at school some that I can say that are good friends that I'll be friends with for a long time, and some that are just semester friends that you'll never talk to again.
Doesn't matter eitherway.
I like the fact that everything has changed.
I'm still friends with some/afew of my highschool friends...
Sam of course who is currently in LA living it up like a rockstar...or will be soon.
Justin who's busy with school to but I hang out with him as much as I can
Robbie who I actually never see but is around
Sean who is currently oversea's studying how to be a SUPER JEW...lol joking though he is in a Jewish school.
I'm still somewhat friends with the girls ...probably only Mandy.
I'm no longer friends with certain backstabbers *cough* candace, sonia *cough*
Something that happened the last year of highschool that I just couldn't let go.
The whole last hangout party before we go off our separate ways, problem...when the person that plans the party isn't invited to the actuall party there is cause for anger.
Eitherway,that is in the past and it is currently the present.
Anime North is just around the corner.
Squee...So excited..I've got my ticket, the room full of people i can trust and are going to be fun to hang out with.
I'm going to take lots of pictures which should be fun.
Oh ya...and Kyles going to be there this year...hmmm...I wonder how I can humiliate him infront of his girlfriend...
I'll have to see ^^
I PROMISE YOU MINA I WILL!!!
XP
Okie time go get going its 4:15am...sleepy time
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[Saturday
July 29th,
06 at 1:32am] |
^^
Random post of the year....seeing as i haven't posted in MONTHS!!!!!!
WHEEEEE!!!!
ARASHI!!!!
^^
MATSUJUN!!
So pretty.....
pretty pretty...
*drool*...
Nothing to really say....
Just got bored decided to post something random!!
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[Monday
April 17th,
06 at 6:03pm] |
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Hello everyone.....
Not that anyone reads my LJ...but anyway!!
Lol, ok so ...My holiday has been crap i find...
Everyone is so busy doing stuff with family ....I feel so left out..
It gets really boring when there is no one to hang out with because they are either busy or they just dont want to put up with anyone... --- I wonder --- is it something that just happens every holiday or is it just something that happens because it happens?
It's interesting sometimes, seeing as it is the last day of the holiday and everyone is doing their homework...well i should be doing that too but I just don't feel up to it right now. Well either way it's just really strange.
Everyday its the same.....
Go to school, get bored, talk to friends, go back to school, get bored, school ends, go home
And sometimes....if your really really lucky you'll hang out with your friends.
I find this stupid....whats the point of school sometimes...
I'm probably boring everyone....who might read this ...I think i'll just be on my way....
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| Behind Closed Doors |
[Monday
February 6th,
06 at 6:44pm] |
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Behind Closed Doors,
I see...
The Darkness following me,
There's Nothing I can Do...
To make my dreams come true...
I know that Darkness Follows Light,
It scares me, it comes out...
Never letting the Light shine through,
the Darkness of the clouds
I wish, I could make stars shine Bright,
Through the Darkness...
When the Darkness follows Light...
Though I will be Strong,
To see that in my World...
The Light follows Darkness when,
Doors in my World open through...
Behind the Darkness of the Doors,
Light follows Through....
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[Sunday
January 29th,
06 at 10:17pm] |
^-^
Me* I like to pinch.....
Random Person* ... Ok...stay away from me
Me* just a little pinch.... Please
RP* I have some tongs and some butter in the car...
Me*...Ok ...ok...No pinch!!
LOL!!!
sorry....Movies... Crab and Honda....Crab trying to pinch car...really funny!!
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[Friday
January 27th,
06 at 1:00pm] |
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YAY!!
Today was my last Exam...
It was great actually....I knew stuff which was good cuz i really think i passed the exam ^_^
Which would be great cuz that means that i would pass her class...That would make me super happy!!!
Anyway
YAY!! LAST EXAM!!!!
So happy dude!!!
Anyway...Me going to go Eat...Though i should say i had my last exam ^_____^
^---^ really great!!!
Anyway ^____^
BYE FOR NOW!! SEE YOU IN A FEW MONTHS!! ...Lol no i'll remember to post something soon XD!!
Oh ya!!!
My Birthday now is only in a MONTH AND 7 DAYS!!!
YAY!!! CANT WAIT!!!
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| LAST EXAM!!!! |
[Thursday
January 26th,
06 at 7:22pm] |
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^-^!!
One more Exam!!!
...Boo though... its Chem...I hope that i do good....
I'm sure i will...but you never know...
OMG!!...
My Drafting exam too the full two hours!!!
Thats new!!!
*sigh*
Anyway going to go study!
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| ...stupid cars... |
[Tuesday
January 24th,
06 at 10:54pm] |
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Yay....our crapy car finally broke down...
Beyond repair...
That isn't good...You see...now my mom has no way of getting to work...
This is just great....Yet another reason to hate my dad with a firie passion...
Fucking Bastard!!!
I HATE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!
Well i guess some good things come from crappy cars..
Me and my mom went to the Toyota Dealership in Burlington
We looked at cars today to lease...seeing as we have no other options
So we are apperently getting a Silver Toyota Carolla sometime this week...
Should be cool....Get to actually experiance the NEW CAR smell
...doesn't smell that great though...
The car actually looks pretty nice...I like it...I got to pick the colour which was kinda cool
But other then that...Yet another thing that my dad did to fuck up this family even more from all the way in Romania...
Yay...
1st. - he leaves my mom in debt
2nd. - he calls me stupid child and doesnt think i know anything about computer...but i actually know more then him
3rd. - wasted all my moms money and instead of getting a new car got 2 crapy ones
4th. - used my family as an excuse to get money from others...
Those are just the tip of the iceburg....There are alot more reason for hating him...so much more!!!!
Well, thats it for today....I better get back to writing my fact sheet cuz i need someone to print it off for me....so i have to go finish it...*sigh*
Anyway....2 more exams left after this one...well really 1...i cant really count Drafting as one...
Anyway...bye bye ...talk to everyone later
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| ONE DONE 2 TO GO!!! |
[Wednesday
January 18th,
06 at 9:23pm] |
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YAY!!!
I just finished one exam today...
Only 2 more to go really that I have to actually study for
Teehee...This is sweet ....
This is so boring....I havent posted in a long time...I see that now ^____^
Thats fine though....everyone's probably used to that by now....
Anyway I've got to do some work
Talk to everyone later on
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| CnB was cancelled |
[Sunday
November 27th,
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Hello people!!!
Alright, so first day of the Con No Baka was pretty bad...I felt bad for spending my money.
There weren't even alot of people there which was really bad business for the CON.
The security people instead of doing their job, they were walking around the Dealers room which was connected to the Artist Ally, which I found so stupid!!
As I said again...I felt bad spending my two bucks on the CnB ticket.
Well either way, I meet Rose there, the owner of Bayshore Hobbies, which was great cuz I spent my time talking to her and her Son, Angus. Which is alright mind you.
Well I was telling Rose what Mandy and Sonia did to me, and she was like, "If you want you can have a ride home with us" which I found really cool because I had no intention of staying at CnB till 1 anyway. So I caught a ride home with her and Angus, and when I got home she offered me a Dealers ticket for Today, I told her I would think about it cuz I would have no ride, and she said if I called her in the morning and say I was going, that she would give me ride there. I said yes so I went.
Second Day and Final Day
When we got there...Omg...Sonia, Mandy, and the people she was with, were sitting down in the couches in the hotel because they hadn't gotten there 'Suite' ...the 350 dollar suite yet, and they saw me. And were slightly pissed off at me cuz I had told them that I wasnt going and then when they saw that I was with Rose, and that I was wearing a Dealers Bag they got even more pissed off at me. I noticed it in their tone of voice that they weren't to happy with me. I talked to them for a bit and then went to eat breakfast with Rose and Angus, which was fun because we just talked about random stuff, then the check came and Rose payed for me. I didn't want her to but she was like it's alright dont worry about it its only breakfest. In which we proceeded back to the Car to get the stuff for the dealers room. My friends Glaring at me, I had asked Sonia to hold something for me cuz I had no room in my bag to put it in and she threw at me when i was passing by. I kinda found that rude.
Well anyway, We got set up in the Dealers room and Rose was like, Go Alex go hang out with your friends. I told her it was alright, that they didnt want to hang out with me because they werent to happy I was there for free. In which she understood so I helped sell things. Alittle bit later, it was great because she was like "Alex, you know I cant pay you right", I nodded and told her that I didnt care because she gave me the free pass for the day. Plus it was more fun just hanging out their with Angus and her talking and selling stuff. Once the doors opened to the Con people, not many really came in about 20 or so showed up and started to look around it was alright. I sold some stuff while I was there alone, about 80 bucks work of Merchendise. Which was awesome, and then Rose came back so I went to eat Lunch with Angus. It was great we just sat there and watched people play DDR.
Then Finally after like 2 hours since lunch the gang of people I knew, Sonia, Mandy, Kenny, John. Were looking around, though they didnt bother saying hello to me untill they were done looking everywhere else. I didn't really care but Rose was like..Oh look Alex you friends are right there. I told her I knew and that they were made at me cuz i would stay with them and everything. And she was like..thats not very nice. I nodded and proceeded on selling more stuff. About 30 minutes later Angus was like, lets play cards, So we started to play cards which was alot of fun, cuz we were playing with an Anime deck and everything. I was winning at one point and then the last turn came up and he ended up winning which was alright. Though it was great, I put a Naruto Forehead protecter on him and we took a picture of it and it was so funny. He actually looked like a Fanboy. I was starting to get thirsty and i told him that i had a 2L bottle of Fanta in my bag, which I forgot in their car, so we went to get it and started like gobble it down. Apperently they love Fanta, lol!! So great.
Well the end of the Con started to near and all of the sudden Security started to attract everyones attention to tell them that the Con would not be open tomorrow do the LACK of attendace (people actually showing up) and they fact that they couldnt pay the Hotel bill sing as they rented out the whole hotel. All the dealers were slightly mad, though happy at the same time. It was great, seeing as Security called one memeber from each dealers desk to come over and listen to what was going on and we were all like, alright alright...in which I said "Security suck, and they arent doing their damn jobs, their just walking around not doing anything." and then some other dealers got pissed off and agreed and said some other stuff in which people actually started to get really pissed off, It was about to get messy cuz all the dealers wanted to hurt the one Security guy standing on the chair talking, but then another shouted out and was like, any fighting WILL RESULT IN ARREST! so the crowd died down and went back to their booths. Though in about 5 minutes they called us back again and told us more stuff and then it happened 2 more times in which it was getting annoying when the Security guard called us all to the courner again and in which Rose, Angus, and I were pissed off so i was like " GO FUCK YOURSELF AND STOP BOTHERING US WE KNOW YOUR CON SUCKS!" both Rose and Angus started to laugh. So we started to pack and start watching the stuff cuz people would try to steal.
So the Con was over. And now me and Angus were asked to wait outside for his Dad, so we went...and we started to have a snowball fight, which was the best fun I've had in a long time. He hit me three times in the head which was alright, but I got him in the legs making him fall to the ground and losing his snowball and hitting himself with it a couple times. It was really fun, Yes...For Angus being Dave's little brother he's actually nice.
He thought that I was weird because I would just show up at AN with my friends but not really buy anything or anything like that. In which he thought I was a freak, but now he's like your actually cool. We talked about alot of stuff, Xbox 360, Games, funny stories, it was so fun.
Yes... So Sonia and Mandy still had to pay 60 dollars even if the Con ended today. I laugh at them..realy..I think they should have just gone home, it would have been better then staying, seeing as if they didnt stay, they could have saved 60 bucks. Though... they decided to stay and have a party instead.
Waste of 60 dollars if you ask me....
Well anyway its 1:15...
and I've been writing this Post for over a half hour...
IM TIRED!!!!!!!
But it was alot of fun, even if i didnt get payed, I got the experience, and Rose's trust that I can do the job. Which is good, seeing as she asked me to email her like a acouple of weeks before AN and see if she needs help, and that she was Hire me for AN06 which would be so great, I would rather sell stuff and have fun back there then walk around for 8 hours lol...Yes I know...Your wondering..why the hell i would o that...well because i would be PAYED THIS TIME!!!!!
Ok...Time to go...
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[Thursday
November 24th,
05 at 10:55am] |
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Stupid Law teacher...
She CHANGED THE LAW TEST TO TOMORROW!!!!!!
I went to school for no reason!!!
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| Hihi |
[Friday
October 21st,
05 at 10:39pm] |
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Hihi ^_^
Nicole my Love...WHERE ARE YOU????
I never see you T-T
Im posting as you asked me to, lol
Anyway, not much has happened really. This month is really overloaded with tones of work, and i dont even have hard classes, but still over worked *sigh*
CnB - 37 Days
Nicks bday - 7 Days
Christmas - 66 Days
New Years - 73 Days
My Bday - 138 Days - just counted that up....so far away
Dont ask, I'm really bored out of my find right now cuz theres nothing to do...yes i know i should be doing my work but i dont feel like it right now.
Well anyway, today has been a ok day...
Sam kicked me in the bum today so i had to get my revenge and steal his bag ^-^
He started to run up and down the street, that was really entertaining, I couldnt stop laughing.
Talked to him, Im pretty sure were hanging out on Halloween, which should be fun, Told him to bring Amanda cuz i thought she would be like it ^____^
Ok, well other then that, school was ok, Chemistry was really REALLY BORING!!!....I need to study for that class alot. I will start ...so much work ^_^
Lets see, This month has been ok, planning on stuff for CnB next month, Hanging out with my friends.
Oh...And one of my best classes ever TAP, is so much fun man...All i do is just help out the teacher, make up tests, and mark things, I also got to help make clay pumpkins with some cute little kids ^-^, though i had to give my pumpkin to this little boy cuz his teacher was being a bitch making him redo his pumpkin cuz it was small, that kinda bugged me so i gave him mine...though it looks like an adult helped him with it, but thats ok ^_^
Lets see, other things that happened this month, oh yes, got in another arguement with Kyle -.-...not so much arguement, more so me stoping to talk to him cuz he pissed me off with something that he did.
Which reminds me, i have to buy Aarron a Bday present cuz i have missed his previous bdays ...have to buy him beer with I turn 19 lol!!...i started to laugh, cuz i owe him about 10 Jolts cuz i keep promising to buy him one. *sigh*
Ok...ermm....what else....YES I KNOW MY LIFE IS BORING!!...lol
I donno, nothing much has happened cuz school is so annoying and it takes up so much time....T-T
Anyway.... thats the month of October so far, i'll post again when Halloween is past ^^
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[Thursday
September 22nd,
05 at 10:54pm] |
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Long time no post...i know
Sorry about that....
Just been really busy and i havent had the time to post anything
Well nothing much....has happened really...just been getting these really bad headache's and they wont seem to go away...
65 DAYS TO CnB!!!!!
well really 64!!!
Lol...cant wait...its going to be so much fun ....going to see kyle again hopefully ^_______________^
Yay....
Ok nothing much to day...though that just been really upset lately about a few things so im probably not going to be all there for aa few days....
*sigh*...
Well anyway im going to go....
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